a moment

simple:

I sit behind the truck full of beings as we all carry the mindset of “trying to figure it out,” all thoughts jumbled in our heads left behind, replaced by a moment of complete serenity. The wind feels cold, a relaxing breeze to settle the chaotic mind. My heart is replenished… hard to believe the freeing expression of “the meaning of life.” To exist with that statement and to know you are living. To unlock the cheat code we so desperately try to seek.

overthinking:

I’m tired of always being in my mind, my brain yearning for the bullshit of being “in the moment” when it requires no thinking and just doing. But never applies anyways… Only sheer glimpses of “the moment” happens when I surround myself with the people I love or with beings that want to LIVE life. I tell myself, “You should only sit with your thoughts when you are in a space alone,” right? I mean, I can tell myself this over and over again, but it wouldn’t fully click until the experience occurs. The realization of what the insight truly means.

There are times when a bursting projection comes from another. The ego decides to talk now. Whether it’s another person or your inner thoughts, triggered and reactive rooted in your own fearful thoughts, only then we discern the clear fact we are all one singular consciousness experiencing one another. That’s when we begin to live.

the essence:

When you start to notice the natural energy you reside with, you witness the rawness of each being reflected toward you. You come to a revelation that everyone is collectively trying to survive. Looking for all the answers to get out of this deep undergoing pain we disguise every moment. When you stop searching, trying, and thinking…. suddenly your body seems to heal. Heal all the silent wounds we never dare to share nor even say out loud. Wounds we sometimes don’t admit to ourselves or are aware of.

When you step outside, surrounded by individuals who go through harsh suffering just like yourself, maybe even far worse than you’ll ever know. You’ll see everyone has one thing in common, we all search for that freedom. Freedom out of this illusion we choose to be a part of. Scared to wake up to the reality that true peace and serenity exist. That this so-called peaceful fantasy is a real-life dream waiting to be lived.

don’t think about it

similar upbringing

You would think you grew up differently than everyone else, that there was no possible way someone could see the same reality as you. You’ll always have the reoccurring thought of no one “understanding” you…

My thoughts are jumbled. It’s nighttime, after a long night with the most aware individuals ever. I sit and connect how my life is interconnected to the things we just discussed.

Moments of time when I sit in silence or subconsciously meditate through driving with sweet melodic melodies, simple walks in the morning, or random contemplations. I allow myself to feel thoughts out, never forcing my mind to think of unorthodox ideas. Letting every thought pass through as if it were the wind blowing through the leaves of a tall, branched tree.